APUSH Exam

Horrible. I didn't pass :[

So Disapponted

Barcelona is out of the Champions League :[

Junior Year Part II

Well its coming to a close in about 4 weeks and less. I really haven;t been on here in awhile but I don't think anyone cares since no one reads my entries lol. Anyways, these past few months I've done.. I don;t know if it's growing up but I've realized a few things. Or at least I think I have. I'm still waiting for everything to play out.

It's just for the past few months I've had entirely too much time to think about the person I am and I realized I kinda don't like her. She's a bitch sometimes, a know-it-all, undeserving of her parents, horrible to her sister, even worse to her dog, and LAZY. What's worse is that my procrastination stops me from correcting all these faults. I seriously cannot go on this way because will get me to somewhere I don;t want to be.

My dreams after high school are slipping away faster than I can handle. I feel like a year from now I'm going to regret the following year for a number a reasons. Notice I'm being general in all my statements. That is because I have an essay to write for AP Language that I'm trying to avoid. This is exactly what I'm talking about. Ill do anything to avoid doing something productive because it takes too much out of me. If only I practiced more than maybe I'd become better at it and won't be irritated by every assignment.

This week and next week I'm really going to have to work at everything. I have two exams and an EOCT I'd like to pass.

You may delay, but time will not. ~ Benjamin Franklin

Hmmmm....

I haven't blogged about anything lately. Really the only reason i'm even writing this blog is because I'm avoiding AP US History homework. So I'm just going to talk about some things I guess.

School: It's getting better. I've learn this year so far that studying actually helps. But like I've said before it's been sucking. I dont have any classes with my best friends :[

But I have lunch with Linda who I am chatting with via webcam.

However I hate the people at my school with a deep passion. I see why people left and I can't be mad at them. Towards the beginning of the year I felt like I was not ready for college yet. And I still do feel that way, but now I really couldn't care less. I just want to leave this town. But yeah I'm kind of getting use to the workload not really though. Give me like a month more and I'll be good on this stuff.

Home: My family is doing fine concerning their health that is, and I'm grateful for that. I just wish that my family could be rewarded with something more than health, maybe a little help financially. Its so ironic, in a painful way too, that my dad moved us here to Georgia from New York for a better life. Yet it seems like we would struggle anywhere. My parents have worked their asses off for 20+ plus years to provide for their family. I just ask that something good is in store for them in future, to show that all their hard work was worth it.

Well I wrote that awhile back, but I'm posting it now.

Sorry

for anyone trying to follow. school work is getting to be a pain and hassle. But it's school and it comes first. I'll try to blog from now on, but occasionally.

xoxo Kim~

This is my new blog. I made it because my last one was getting on my nerves. Also I have a new blog called "My Journey to Complacency Minus the Ego". If you'd like to follow, you need to ask me. Its not a public blog.

xoxo Kim

Junior Year So Far...

Has been so difficult. Many of the people I could call my friends left. Besides that I get on average 4, hours of sleep, my grades are not where I'd like them to be, and I have no time for a social life. I understand that I'm at fault somewhat for both two of these problems. But the first two years of high school did not prepare me for this important year at ALL. To top all of this off my family is struggling so hard with money right now, and its painful to watch my dad and mother open up bills and see their faces. Worse is that I feel helpless and guilty. I want to help them out but I have no job which means no money. I feel guilty because I'm draining them of their money with all these clubs I want to join.

Still I want to stay positive throughout all this. I'm hoping somewhere in the near future all of this will have been worth it. I'm just going to try really hard to have a social life and see my friends that have left. You know who you are :D

Huh. I though I'd have more to say I guess I don't. Nothing really has happened that has made me terribly sad, pissed off, or actually happy.

Owning your burdens is half the battle. ~From the television show "Scrubs"

xoxo Kim

P.S. I'm sorry it's been 3 months since my last post.

Last Day of School + 4 days

If you don't get the title, then basically its just saying 4 days have passed since school let out and its Tuesday. They use that same format in Band of Brothers, which I watched again today. I absolutely think that is one of the best shows ever produced. I love watching historical stuff. Well stuff that's recent. I couldn't give a shit about what happened with the Islamic Empires and the Chinese dynasties. Maybe that's why I failed my AP exam...lol.

Yeah so today I basically did nothing again. But yesterday Linda had a BBQ and i ate food there. Damn those Asians can cook. Linda just kept offering food and I couldn't resist (which is bad ofr my diet). Damn you Linda and your Asian foods.

Back to today. My internet and cable went out so that made my day even suck more. I woke up like at 2 in the afternoon, not good. Oh but my Dad is going to buy the tickets for Nueva York Thursday and pay off almost half of my Paris trip. I really cannot wait to go to Normandy. That's another place in France, and it's where D-Day took place. Awesome! Well not in the sense of young men dying, but in the sense that some historical shit went down.

I also played Combat Arms, which is basically a killing game because the whole objective is to kill the enemy. I just finished playing an hour ago with Linda and her brother. Me and Linda lost against her brother. But we did almost win so that counts. And if you say it doesn't then you can
SUCK IT! I need to do something this week. Probably go to the park with my doggy! OOOOOH that would be so much fun.

Ok well i didn't have anything meaningful to say in this blog so i'll leave you with a funny quote from one of my favorite movies and one I say to people who make me mad.

"I'm gonna rip your head off and shit down your neck!" - Teddy from Stand by Me

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Violence = Solution?

Today was the beginning of break and it went well... ehh.

I slept in really late til like 12. Linda called me before though and I picked up. We both sounded really tired. Or maybe it was my imagination. Anyways, I thought I'd be able to go to her house but I couldn't :/ a great way to start this break off. Still we had a lot of fun yesterday afternoon.



Haha do you see a nipple?


So that makes up for the fact I guess. Linda and I tried to beat up Barnard, but I ended up with dirt in the folds of my pants. Probably because we fell so many times on our backs.

Anyways back to today. I watched a couple episodes of Band of Brothers and i realized two things. That violence doesn't solve always solve anything and is rarely necessary. I can;t understand why people would fight over something they heard or because their feelings got hurt. But then there are those cases where it's totally acceptable. Take WWII. Hitler and his fellow Nazis thought the "Final Solution" was to put Jews, gypsies, and others who didn't fit their idea of the "perfect race" into work camps. I can see how violence was needed because I don't think there was anything that could be said to change these demented Nazis.

Sometimes I wish people could just realize that violence isn't meant to be used when supposedly you heard someone say blahblahblah about you. I mean I see this not only in people my age but those older. When we're kids it's okay becuase we don't know any better. But there is a time when we should realize what is really important and if violence really does solve anything.

When I watch programs like Band of Brothers, it makes me grateful for the people who go out and fight. But it makes me hate the governments who make them do it, whether through drafting or propoganda.

"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will."
- Gandhi

*Note* 12/20/09

Something happened to the pictures...

ALYCIA!

I told you i was going to blog. But yeahh i'm about to go to the hospital to see my grandpa so i'll be back soon. oh i have to do this though.

KRIS ALLEN WON AMERICAN IDOL!


AHHH... such warm welcomes lol.
I came back from the hospital where I visited mi abuelo. There was something wrong with his prostate but they got whatever it was out. I was relieved to know he didn't have cancer. But still I didn't like seeing him hooked up to all those wires, looking sick (and not in that stupid sense people use today) and in pain. I just want him to make a fast recovery and be well again.

On a lighter note, Okay so basically tomorrow is the last day of school! A whole book could not express how happy I am. Sarah is coming too! But I heard it was gonna rain. Man I cannot wait to get tomorrow over with so I can start my spring break. AND BLAZE YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE! I'M GOING TO TIE YOU UP IN MY ROOM TO A CHAIR AND FEED YOU OCCASIONALLY.

Also another big plus was that Kris won AI!!! I don't care what anyone says he deserved it. He's so fucking hot lol. Alright, just needed to get that off my chest. I just love his style. I prefer acoustic over pop-ish type music. I just created a whole playlist on Myspace of all the songs he sang on AI. I'm obsessed and I have a problem I know.

SUMMER BREAK HERE I COME!

Summer afternoon - summer afternoon; to me those have always been the two most beautiful words in the English language. ~Henry James

I'm in love with

MUSIC! For the past hour I've been downloading music instead of doing my homework. But I'm a third way thro the the chapter and I took notes. 1st period seemed to have gone forever. I remember hearing Alycia and Blaze each looking surprise when they looked at the clock at separate times. That seems to happen all the time I don't know why and everytime my heart just drops. 2nd period was actually better. I like going to that class. You can not even begin to know how relieved I felt when our slam poetry presentations got pushed to Friday. 3rd period is the same as always. Annoying freshman and terrible hand coordination. In P.E. we walked around the track and did basically nothing. I really don't mind because it's the part of the day where I get to clear my head. I couldn't do it of course without my mp3 player. When I came home I ate. And ate. And did I mention I ate. Seriously though I was real hungry because I don't eat lunch at school. I'm trying not to anymore at least. I'm mad because AP is taking up all my free time, so now I won't be able to read my books that I actually want to. I'm being forced to do other things. UGHHHHH! I'm going to try and get thro it as quick as possible. Probably do all that shit next week.
Spring Break = More sleep and late nights

The good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge.
- Bertrand Russell

My Birthday

Yes it went great. But I couldn't bring all my friends my dad said he had to put a limit somewhere. So it kinda made me feel down when someone asked if I invited so-so. When we took pictures I forced some of the smiles. I don;t know I just always feel paranoid for some reason. Like I hate the thought of anyone hating me or even being mad with me. I tell myself not to care but its hard. Today was suppose to be a good day. It was but then these negative thoughts want to creep into my head. And i feel like my bottom half weighs so much more than my top half. Although I was happy I could psend time with my friends. It was like last year plus one. My father is very gracious (not). I'll try to post the pictures when I get them. I'm watching El Salvador playing the U.S. and El Salvador was winning by two. It took them 71 minutes to get that. Now U.S. is tied with them and it took them less than 20. WTF?!?

Creativity

I lack that concept so much I should be handicapped. I'm not good at art and I SUCK at poems. I guess i do decent in both areas. My grade keeps going down in AP. I'm starting not to like that man! I enjoy going to second period even though we're on poems. Its fun I guess. 3rd period we're drawing and I'm trying to be as neat as possible so it doesn't come out looking ugly as usual. In gym we're outside on the track cause the juniors have kicked us out of the gym. Buttholes. Oh I did find my glasses. They were under the bleachers. yay. I;m still asking for new ones for my birthday. Oh yeah I'm turning 16 soon. Ewww I'm getting old. Here's a piture I took of me and my dog.

And in the end,
it's not the years in your life that count.
It's the life in your years.
- Abraham Lincoln

I've Been Needing This

I found a new obsession now that I finished the Twilight series. The book I'm reading is called"City of Bones."

I admit it sounds kind of morbid, but its EXTREMELY fun to read. I need to start to read the second book. I love reading fantasy fiction. I was so bored in AP today as usual. I tore some paper and started to play with it.We're doing poetry in lit and i am so horrible at it. I'd much rather just analyze it and leave my friends to write it. They're very good. We also read an article about same sex relationships. I think if two human beings love each other and treat one another good then nothing else should matter. In art class we're doing graffiti again and i barely ever say a word in that class. There are a handful of freshman and they're just SLIGHTLY annoying. During gym coach had us sit like for 20 minutes in our spots while he was in his office doing God knows what. So we decided to go and sit on the bleachers. Then he comes out and says "who told ya'll to sit down?" So we went back to our spots for another 20 minutes doing nothing. He finally let us get up and walk around. I mostly just read my book, like always. When I got hoome my dad called my brother's cell. My brother was in the shower so I picked up. He started to b[x]tch about how he wasn't gonna have enough money to pay for my Paris trip this month. We called up the company and apparently I hadn''t set up the payments right. Whoops. Then I started to watch Nick And Norah's Infinite Playlist.

I love watching movies. OKay I've wrote too much. So after that I walked my dog, exercised (whoo!) and blogged lol.

And I'll leave you with this quote.

Be faithful in small things because it
is in them that your strength lies.-Mother Teresa

Goals

I have many of them. Like getting higher than a three on the AP exam. Losing weight. Getting all A's this semester. Come out of this school year with having done something great. I mean the school year is almost over and i feel like i haven't learned a thing. I feel like I got dumber. So for the rest of this month and next month I'm really gonna think and do nothing but try to achieve the goals I listed before. I wasted 8 1/2 months doing nothing. I'm almost 16 too. I don't know maybe I'm just being pessimistic but its how I fell. I can't change that. So in order not to feel this way I'll have to change a few habits. This will be a challenge but if - no scratch that - when I get through it then it will all have been worth it. Plus I wanna get a job and my license, but for now I think I'll focus on my academic studies and worry about that during the summer. Umm i guess this was kind o me just babbling but i want to get this down so I can look back on it in a couple months, and see if I'm disappointed I didn;t meet these goals; or that I'm happy I had wrote this blog.

You know you love me
xoxo Kim

its been awhile

more like two weeks i guess since i've been on. i'm really tired right now and i'm about to go to sleep. so i'll come back and edit this post later.



like i said i would be back. i don't know for some reason lately i haven't been going on the computer a lot especially the internet. i think school has really gotten to me. today while i was in the shower i decided i would start again with my daily exercises and a healthy diet. cause i constantly eat with no portion control and always find a reason to not exercise. i think i'm gonna put up a big list in my room to help reach this goal. i need to buy a scale too. i've also been watching soccer. my dad the hispanic he is has a couple channels where all they talk about is soccer and play matches. oh and today i went to cici and the movies for alycia's birthday. it was fun cause i had seeral pieces of cake and pizza :] and i saw madea goes to jail. it was funny. i think i'll download t when it comes out on dvd. and ugh my "v" is acting dumb. but anyways i hae a couple of assignments i need to get done this weekend. i recently read this book.

i recommend the book cause it has a unque storyline and teaches you things. i did for me. okay well i think i'm gonna go start my essay.

Blog ya later
-Kim<3!

SNOW

Right now I'm listening to "Brothers on a Hotel BUs" by Death Cab. I love their music. I'm also watching the snow fall outside my window. I just took my dog out for a walk. I think he had fun [: This weekend really has not been so productive. I haven't done anything except take some notes. I'm gonna have to cram it all in today. I think I can do it since I did one of my assignments weeks ago. Oh did I mention it was snowing?


Yeah those arent the best pics but thats what my webcam could take. Yesterday all I did really was do laundry, watch Buffy, and I saw Breakfast at Tiffany's I really love that movie.. And i tried to get a new template but its too hard so I have this fugly one. I'm gonna change it tho. I think thats it for now I'll write later on. I need to start on my homework.

Blog ya later.
-Kim
P.S. I'm still working on a signature sign off thingy.

P.S.S. Here's a picture of the movie I was talking about.

The Plan

Okay so me and Alycia we're talking about how the noodles are gonna blow up the school and I was thinking we should help. The only problem is that the noodles can't be trusted. So I say that when we go in to the school to initiate the explosion we lock the noodles in someplace they can't get out and leave them in there to explode. Then when the school blows up so will the noodles and everyone will be happy. For one the school is gone and second cause there are noodles everywhere. We can just open our mouths and eat. YUMM! And we can just blame the whole thing on them and everyone will think that they locked themselves in there on accident. :]

BOOMSHAKALAKA

Wow I haven't blogged in forever. Okay so not a lot hads changed just maybe that i got fatter and lazier. I need to work on that cause I want to look good this summer lol. Oh I'm listening to Erin McCarley. Thank you Sarah for introducing me to her. Today went well. I'm not behind in art which is amazing for me. Probably cause I stayed til 5 the other day making up what I missed. On Tuesday I went to Agnes Scott College. It really showed me that I need to be more proactive and that all girl colleges can have some hot males on campus. I saw this sexy man I think he was staff. This brought on a werid fantasy where I'm dating my hot professor in college. I think I might make that a goal of mine after high school. HIgh school boys seem immature. Sarah I think I can see where your coming from now. So yeah I plan on applying to a whole bunch of summer programs so I'm not so bored during this summer. I think this summer might be the most exciting. But I do not want to jinx it. Okay that's all I'm gonna write for now. Blog ya later.

Thanks for reading
-Kim